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Busy

2008-03-16T00:28:00.002+08:00

People say I have a angst problem which I admit that I do. I guess action speaks louder than words. I did not pray enough and I did not fast enough. Yet I yearn for people to know You. Dear God, what did we do to deserve your unfailing love for us, time after time we break Your heart. I have been wondering what's the purpose of me being where I am now when I am only hurting people whom I love. I sometime hate myself for doing it. I yearn for Your presence, I yearn for Your love, I yearn for Your voice, I yearn for Your warmth.

Holidays!

2008-02-26T23:46:00.003+08:00

Its the holidays! I can finally play Silkroad at ease. I need to use these 2 months properly. Anyway, I think to sit down and think about my Overseas Internship. Thinking about leaving Temasek Polytechnic makes me feel, bitter. Thinking about leaving Singapore makes me feel, heavy-hearted. Guess where am I having internship? Malaysia. Yes Malaysia! I am not sure to be happy or disappointed at the country. My Course Manager said this, " Don't just look at the country, look at the company!" The company is Avaya. He said that it is a multi-national company. I checked up on it, yes it is a company from America. I thought a lot about this OSIP thing. I will miss my friends, church and my family too. Well, I am not even sure whether there will be an interview for me. Sigh. I am going off to emo. See ya'll.

Sword

2008-02-17T19:04:00.005+08:00

New sword! I bought Claire's sword from Comics Connection today. It costs $6.90. Not sure if it is really from Japan but I believe that most of CC's stuff are not from Japan anyway. I am happy I got it. I bought a book from Kinokuniya on Friday too. The Sword of Shannara by Terry Brooks. I want to see what a "master" he is in writing fantasy books. I am currently immense in reading it. I should stop playing MMORPG games now, till after my examinations.
^_^

FEB

2008-02-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

Its February and here I am blogging. I will be going to Malaysia for Chinese New Year. Yes! Holidays time! Going back to nature releases me from insanity. Will blog again when I come back! I am just sooooooooooooooooooooooo addicted to this video. HAHAHAHAH

Escalator

2008-01-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

I freaking fell on the escalator today. Now I have 2 bruises which are like 2 freaking mini mountains. My cousin and I were rushing for the AVP2 movie so we went up the escalator with our increased speed, somehow my muscles was not acting on my command so I fell. Thank God I did not fell flat on my face. Cause of this: muscle ache. Anyway I have signed up for the "Winning with people" course that costs $60 for 6 sessions. Looking forward to it. Alright enough of my whining, signing off!

Irritated

2008-01-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

I have been emo-ing lately. I went for my 2nd English lesson yesterday. Mr Simon gave us loads of websites on English stuff. At the end of the day, he gave us homework and we are suppose to write a full page on , "Which business sectors and companies would you consider investing in nowadays and why?For example: the airline industry, car manufacturing, biotechnology, telecoms, construction or pharmaceuticals." I was like, " .......................................Hmm." I have no idea what I am going to write! Was thinking of switching to another course. Anyway when I got home, I saw my mobile bills. Its like, $178! Cool huh. The good thing is my payroll is on Thursday. Another thing is my E-Business Assignment. Its due next week! We have not even start on the ZenCart yet! Sigh sigh sigh! Alright I got to stop whining and do some kick-ass homework.
(Whining)Seriously, I hate it when a second party touches my laptop / keyboard/ mouse. It is not even yours and you use it without my permission? And when I come back you are still using it? The word is called - "自动". Pisses me off totally. Its not like you cannot use it but, please limit yourself and do not go overboard.

Dattebayo

2008-01-09T20:33:00.000+08:00

Even though I did not watch Bleach for quite some time, but nevertheless I am astounded by the news from Dattebayo.
Link : http://www.dattebayo.com/pr/58
All of you uploaders for stream sites like veoh,crunchyroll and youtube : see lah! What have you done?! Now we as fans cannot have our usual dose of anime every week now. Sigh.
Anyway, I have been busy with school. Software Engineering is driving me to the edge. Aaaaaaaah.

School!

2008-01-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

School starts tomorrow! After school is work! Can't help it. I need money for my bills and expenses. Keep my mind off some stuff and focus on living for Him. Heh.

New year

2007-12-30T22:59:00.000+08:00

I can't believe its gonna be 2008. To tell you guys the truth, I am hardly prepared at all. What goals shall I set this year? What resolutions shall I make? Am I up for the challenges of 2008? Shall I embrace them instead of whining? Its funny how 2007 passed. Seems like I missed out loads of things. Anyway, I really like Pastor Tan's message today. From Dr Bernard, " When change is necessary, not to change is destructive." Your sub-conscious mind knows that something is good for you and you have to change in order to get the better result. And yet, your flesh tells you not to do it because of various excuses that you give yourself. I felt condemn at myself when I listened to the message. Today's message is better than Adam Khoo's motivation lessons.

School officially starts tomorrow. Looking forward to it!

A comeback

2007-09-23T16:04:00.000+08:00

Its been a freaking long time since I last blogged! Lots has been happening, in church or in family, however, I am the same! I hope I will not be after my holidays. :) I am deciding to take up English classes from the British Council. My English has been deteriorating since Secondary school. I'm going to go work now. See ya'll.

Holidays!

2007-09-02T11:17:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER! Yoohoo! Will be working during the holidays though. YEAH!

New slippers

2007-08-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

Bought a new pair of slippers today. My mother wanted to watch the Fireworks Festival since we were already late for the talk. It was so freaking crowded and we were in the car. Apparently, I do not find fireworks amazing. So I was complaining that we should go home instead as the crowd was giving me a headache. At 9.15pm the fireworks started. We could only hear the sound but not the fireworks. Only after the show has ended she drove off reluctantly, hoping there would be an encore. My mother was nagging at me that I should go exercise and I was so freaking pissed. I wanted to ask her to shut up. Pardon me, she is not those who will talk in a very nice tone, to me she was shouting, so I shouted back. Every time when I go out with her, she will always end up nagging me and spoils everything. Argh.

Public Speaking

2007-08-17T11:24:00.000+08:00

Screwed up week, got a miserable C for Public Speaking, after I calculated. Communication Skills was bad too. I got 2/10 for the part "Questions answered". Li Sui got 1/10. Are those sympathy marks? Yi Tian got 7.5/10 because she answered the question. There were 3 of us and 1 question, so we are suppose to fight to answer the question? Hey it makes a freaking big difference for that 5.5 marks? Totally screwed up week. The effort I make does not make any difference, even in relationship, things just get worse everyday. Do not come and say, "sorry " it does not make any difference. Yes, if you are wondering who I am talking about. It is you. Go and gossip about me if you want. If gossiping makes your life better. All you think about its you, you and you. I am fed up with your, you, you and you attitude! Darn attention-getters. Especially attention-getters for guys. Fed up, screwed up and shut up! BYE

School's cafe

2007-08-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

I went to the school's restaurant at Engine School today. Ordered an espresso and Assorted deserts(as shown in the picture). Its great! But the icing on the cupcakes are too hard, so I did not attempt to eat it. But seriously, it is like the food that you have in Barbie's playhouse. Might go for lunch the next time.

Havoc

2007-08-12T22:29:00.001+08:00

I-finally-got-my-hands-on-Deathly-Hallows! Got it yesterday. I am currently at chapter 9. Should be able to finish 5 chapters tonight. Anyway, I saw this when I was on the way to have dinner at ECP:It is like, Heaven. All the 7 colors were there. I think I will remember this for the rest of my life. I was kinda sad that I did not bring a camera with me.

donut factory!

2007-07-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

Tempting! I ate the Double Chocolate(right). It taste great! Love to have another one. White on the outside, dark on the inside. Well, I can only get 2. The other was for my mom. Glad that I finally get to taste it.

101th post

2007-07-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

I realized the last post was the 100th post. I decided to post this 101th post! hahaha! Last week was great, this week is going to be great too! Gonna have DSAG lab test this coming Wednesday, Friday, Public Speaking presentation. Things are piling up bit by bit. However, I just cannot wait to get my hands on the copy of Deathly Hallows. I want to end my collection with the US version of it. Apparently I have to wait 2-3 weeks for it. I shall keep my focus on my studies now. Had a talk with brother Zi Yang. I did not know that he/my cell group knows my good points, for I always think about my bad points. ^_^ I need to love people and its a hard thing to do. It may be hard, but I guess the outcome will not be bad. Forgive me if I am rude to you, sometimes I focus on what I am doing and may ignore all other things. I have learn how to be grateful to my family and friends, through church and various experiences. Some people takes things for granted(like myself). I just realized these two weeks, and today that I have become so dependent on my mother for everything that I feel the sudden urge to send her a SMS saying, " Hey mom, thanks for everything that you have provided me. You are the best mom in the world."

Yellowcard's Paper Walls

2007-07-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

Music Junction did not have it, went to HMV instead. Fighting is good. ^_^

Fun.

2007-07-17T18:03:00.001+08:00

Its funny how my friends can be. ^_^

Dead

2007-07-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

Been feeling kinda dry these few days. Seems nothing is spurring me on. Sigh. I can just bang on the wall now.

Transformers

2007-07-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

Transformers was alright. Bumblebee is my idol. Harry Potter up next! Oh I forgot to see Mr Simon today about our contract. 3As is possible. I got to believe in myself and rely in my Daddy.
P.S. Love People.

Movies !

2007-07-05T20:00:00.000+08:00

Transformers: This Sunday(8 July) 2.30pm

Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix : Next Wed (11 July) 7pm.

HAHA. 2 bone-reckoning movies coming up! Booked tickets already. I will make sure I will catch the movies.

Young NTUC

2007-06-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

Today the 10 of us went to the Young NTUC rehearsal for NDP at the Padang. We wasted our time there. Rehearsal of opening and closing our umbrellas. Total time wastage. I could have gone to cell meeting instead. But it was not that bad, went to eat dinner with the people and went home. I dropped by the Donut Factory but it was closed, it was only 8.15pm. Sigh. Tomorrow busy day again.

What a week!

2007-06-29T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yes! What a week. Hell gates open! Rushing projects and all. Tomorrow having the Young NTUC rehearsal and Sunday, the MILK run. Packed even the weekends. Sigh. The GST hike coming up! More allowance please. HA. Transformers. Anyone? My tolerance is really low. Darn.

TP Connection bbq

2007-06-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

The bbq was great! I want to thank Yi Tian and JX. They accompanied me! Bryan: thanks for carrying the fishballs. Everything was great. I am waiting for the photo so I can post up here!

Oreo cheesecake!

2007-06-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

Made oreo cheesecake on Friday, gave half of the cake to my cell group. Success! :)
There's room for improvement right?

Japanese college

2007-06-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

Its a bit late for this but...........
Shall I go for it? Comments please.

Fantastic 4

2007-06-13T23:28:00.001+08:00

The movie was alright. I like it best when Johnny goes, " FLAME ON!"

But this picture is from the first movie.

Not bad lah. Will be working at my uncle's shop at Bugis street. So I guess this Friday's trip to the zoo is not on. Right?

I miss them

2007-06-12T01:06:00.000+08:00

I miss the netball girls. Really.

LONG TIME NO SEE!

2007-06-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

Hey ALL! I am back! I am sorry for my sudden disappearance, but nonetheless I am here again! Will post regularly. Year 2 @ poly. Time flies eh? My hair is now dark brown. I guess will go do something more to it soon. Projects, projects and more projects! Help!

Birthday!

2007-03-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

Its my birthday! Its great. We ate japanese food for dinner. :) I am so looking forward to tomorrow's prayer meeting. Well, I have been thinking about, a new desktop. Yes, a new desktop. I have been complaining about the lack of space in my laptop, which is like less than 20GB. Like small right? Now, laptop minimum you will get 80GB. I mean, this laptop is like 5 to 6 years old? Pfft.

I want the middle one. Dual core processor, 160GB in hard disk, and the graphic card aint bad, I hope my mom will buy for me as a birthday present. Sigh.

Bible Study

2007-03-25T20:30:00.000+08:00

So well, church was great today. Bible study was not bad too. First time with Eric. There was the quiz! Well, like finally, after so long I am going into Christian Lifestyle. I am so looking forward to Easter! <3
P.S. I wish I can stop it, stop all the interaction. Sigh.

Cousin

2007-03-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

Hey my mates! Been a long time since i last touch. This holidays I decided to do something that is new, so I began teaching tuition! Hey, gonna post some pictures here. Its not me though.Familiar? :)
I guess we are in the same club after all. HA

P.S. He's single and available!

East Coast

2007-03-10T12:46:00.000+08:00

What I was doing? What do you think I was doing?

Dissed

2007-03-10T00:08:00.001+08:00

I should shut up.

I thought

2007-03-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

And I thought his message last Friday was clear cut to me. It gave me the courage and perseverance. Well, I guess now I just need a break, from all the shit.

New found

2007-03-05T03:53:00.000+08:00

Lost in my way, found in Your Way. I have been busy with examinations. Now, I'm free! Even though it only last for short while. I am setting a new record of not sleeping. It really annoys me when, they say things that I do not know of. How am I going to impact and influence people like this? Well, I need to get my buttocks moving to do something this holiday.

LFC <3

2007-02-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

I LOVE LFCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC

Well actually I dreamt about them a few days ago, just before the match with Barca. I dreamt of Riise and he scored the winning goal. AHAHAHA

UVERworld!

2007-02-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

I LOVE UVERworld. PWNAGE OKAY!

lalala~

V day

2007-02-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. No date. ;> However, I am celebrating Yi Tian's birthday at Seoul Garden. Heh I made cookies for my class today. Li Sui came over to bake some too.

Nice?
Happy V day all!

Sleepless

2007-02-08T01:18:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep. Damn. I have been watching this hit tv series named Heroes. Its airing on Star World(Channel 18) every Wednesday 9pm to 10pm. Episode 2 is currently over. Its really highly recommended other than Prison Break. I am currently at episode 10 of Heroes and Season 2 episode 16 of Prison Break. Man, I don't get tired of US drama hit series don't I. Here's the link : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heroes_%28TV_series%29

Picture

2007-02-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

Enjoy the picture people. Think I am going to print 4R. :)

Pizza Hut

2007-02-02T13:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a great day. I love my mates. Met up with netball teammates and we had Pizza Hut. Its been a year since I ate it. Haha. The dinner was full of fun and laughter. I guess its really good to meet up once in a while. I am looking forward to the next one. Group photo will be uploaded later when I get home. After dinner I went to meet up with Marl, Leon and Raph to watch Blood Diamond. Leonardo DiCaprio is hawt. Well, I spent $30 on taxi fare. A record I must say.

New faith

2007-01-31T22:05:00.000+08:00

Another busy day. I fought myself with the drug today. The medicine makes me drowsy so I realised I started spouting nonsense. Well, Yitian , Amelia and Kelvin came my house today to practice Computing Maths. Because of my irregular attendance in c-maths lecture, I have to get help from my sword. haha As usual, Kelvin would hog over my laptop and play games. I mean, he always wants to "play" something. I gotta go study c-maths again. GOALS!

"Its one thing to know there is a God, its another to know who God is. "

Boozers

2007-01-28T12:39:00.000+08:00

Its been a week. Yeah well was rushing FNDB project. Which, its really hard to work out with my groupmates when they know no shit about anything. Really, during th e last day, all she did was daydream. Another thing that she likes to do is giggle and talk gibberish on the phone. Like wtf? Well, whatever. My mother announced to me a challenge that if i get 2 As and 2 Bs, I can go to Japan again, during the March holidays. Is that good or bad news to me? I am not sure.

Nonsensical

2007-01-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

Nonsense ! People check this out : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYcs0lCkpo8 I WANT NASI BABI. Seriously Ivan, its not you when you are like, so serious. Be cool. :)

I just love Liverpool.

Netball, the last stand.

2007-01-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

The last match for us. God knows what might happen next. Whatever it is I just pray that everything will go well for them. :D Great memories for all of us. Thanks for being there for me. Big thanks and love to you girls!

Great

2007-01-14T00:21:00.000+08:00

I decided to blog about this. He confessed to her. GREAT really great I tell you. No wonder he went home with her, ate Long John Silver's with her, at the computer lab with her. For God's sake, she has BO! Like omfg. So thats why, you stopped talking to me. You did not even say hi to me in school. Thanks a lot dude. Okay, maybe I should not even blame you in the first place. Its all my fault. I should not have known you even before I got into TP. Great, just great. I cannot think of any other words to bring out my feelings.
Yi Tian, thanks for telling me. <3

useless

2007-01-10T11:02:00.000+08:00

I thought alot during training yesterday. Thoughts that says, " Am I of use to the team? Do I still want to stay in this team? What can I do? " My thoughts really pisses me off. Thoughts that tells me to quit all the shit. I have to work really hard for this semester. I want to make full use of my time. Totally depressing.

ZOMG

2007-01-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

>_> School for the first week. RUSHING projects and assignments. IVP next week. ZOMG Okay well, 2KG! Off my big body! Yeah man.

2007

2007-01-01T18:32:00.000+08:00

ITs 2007! More goals, more visions, more experience! Cheers to all.

PHOTOS

2006-12-31T00:55:00.000+08:00

Here are the pictures from CHC Christmas service last week. Hehe Been busy recently, because of trainings every night. Well, Auntie Julie is really good. She's really patient with us compared to Coach Vivian. <3>Me and my cousin, Brian.
W295 - 2006

Christmas

2006-12-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

Christmas was great. I enjoyed the feeling of giving. I love the joy of giving! This year was the first time I gave presents to my family. I bought loads of chocolates and cookies for my friends and family. All from Marks and Spencer. Church was cool. I brought my cousin and Grandmother to service. The drama was funny. So whats next? Projects and trainings coming up. Shall I make sushi again?

Weight

2006-12-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

I felt like the weight of the world was on me when I went for training just now. Coach Viv is not going to coach us till January. Oh well, IVP is like only 2 weeks away. The school has such high hopes for us. I went for a jog on Wednesday, compared to today, I really felt as if I weigh 200 pounds. Its all about the mind. New year resolutions, hafta start NAO ! I say Mark and Spencer's shortbread that costs about $3.50 and I wanted to get it for myself. I bought other goodies like Chocolate Chip cookies and stuff. I gave it away to my colleagues at Takashimaya. People like Jayne, Maggie and Boon Tian. I have none for myself. Maybe I should go get more gifts for my gan ma at Orchard Point. Have to return her the VCD. Its been a YEAR! Well, <3 memories, lots of them.

Manipulated

2006-12-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

Am I your pawn or something? Do you have to checkmate me? So, this is what I get. Okay, then I'll have to get over it. Shit, working later. Oh yeah, guess who I met today? Hui Xian!! She has long hair already. I was like wow. Nice. 2nd suprise Jun Jie was at Lucky Plaza and I did not know he was there, he saw me so we had lunch. He said that the ah pek sitting beside me is my husband so I said the kopi-soh is his wife. lawl :D Alright off to sleep, before more shit happens.

donation

2006-12-21T02:44:00.000+08:00

So my mother and I was quarrelling about the article on The Straits Times at the Forum section. 20th December 2006. She told me not to to CHC anymore. According to the article, CHC has assets about 65 million SGD a year. Ahem Did you just said donate? I went, omfg. She believe what was said in the FORUM SECTION. I do not DONATE. According to her religious dictionary, its called donate. Well, I can't sleep. Apparently I got myself into a problem. The solution I gave to myself is, ignore online shit. Yes, i was crying, after all the shit. And now, I'm gonna hate myself for being stupid. History repeats itself eh?

died

2006-12-21T02:37:00.000+08:00

I am gonna, shut my life and make myself fugly.

Sushi making

2006-12-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

SO I went to Gina's place for sushi making today. First time doing it. Well first time doing it, its not EASY! Here's a picture of the outcome :
Not very nice though. haha

Irritated

2006-12-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

I am sorry, really sorry that I have to treat you that way. I know you were waiting for me. I think you'll hate me. I just think its better for us, or should I say myself, to stay this way.

MORE TIME!

2006-12-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

Here I am. Sleepy. I have a freaking role-play tomorrow and we have not even rehearse YET. Oh well. I bought new speakers, Logitech keyboard and mouse for my desktop. My desktop is freaking slow. I guess its because of the processor. I need to change the motherboard. Maybe I'll DIY : Build Yourself a computer. haha We have trainings next week. Term test is a week away. I am SO unprepared.

P.S My cousin is coming! Next week. 10th of Dec. Yipee

The ch33k

2006-12-01T00:33:00.000+08:00

She still has the cheek to come back. I mean, after all these months. So, is it my fault that she scolded you in front of everybody? You made all those complaints to me, do you think I give a shit? Stop moaning and groaning, if you really want to come back, stop complaining. ZZZ

Dark side

2006-11-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

I wear a mask to hide me,
the real me.

I wear a mask to hide,
the person you don't wan't me to be.

You try to mold me like a statue for everyone to see.
You want me to be what you couldn't be.

You degrade the man inside of me.
You can't accept me for ME.

I hide me until I can't anymore, you see?
You push me to the point of insanity.

I have to destroy the man I turned out to be.

I have no choice but to leave, the mask can't
hide me for eternity.

I have to find peace.
Peace not for you but for me.

Taken from http://www.everypoet.net/xoops/modules/news/index.php?storytopic=5&storynum=25

She slammed the door. Yes, I did not tell her about the meeting with my father. Ii want to tell her later. It was all the big mistake. Big mistake. She is like the inclement of the weather nowadays.

Zi Xin

2006-11-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

This is my cousin, she's so cute lah! Came to my house yesterday. Adorable! She kept smiling and she likes to play with my laptop. haha

New phone!

2006-11-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

Yes I got a new phone. Sony Ericsson w810i black. Great phone. Anyway if you want my new handphone number, email me or something. Thanks. I know, I know you like me and stuff, but I cannnot let go, of him. You know that. I am sorry. Thanks for being there for me. You do not have to wait.

Thank you.

Forgotten

2006-11-20T00:23:00.000+08:00

Yes, I was working today at Takashimaya. Saw Fiona Xie buy 2 Chanel handbags I think. Well, with her shades and all, I must say that she's pretty well covered. Yeah, I was not feeling very good this morning. Got my eyes all red. Had a tiff with my mother again. I guess, relationships is not my thing. I wish, I could die with my grandmother, that would really make me happy.

Training later today! YES!

reasons

2006-11-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

Yes, I am down because I was worried. You did not reply , but apparently it did not get through your phone. Call me petty. Tell me something I do not know. Suprise me.

Sick

2006-11-18T00:22:00.000+08:00

I am so sick. Most probably, I have been thinking too much. I think I should stay away from the most dangerous feeling on earth. Love. Good night.

stressed

2006-11-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

Loads of stuff turning me on and off. Netball is definitely turning me on and studies - off. Its definitely much more peaceful without my mother around. She just came back yesterday and today, we had a tiff again. GAWD. Oh well, I just have to excercise more to de-stress. I am looking forward to next Wednesday. :)

Paragon

2006-11-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

Well, apparently, I did not get the job. Their priority was looking for those who can work on weekdays. Its okay to me anyway. Had training in the morning with Renegades (Netball club) and I did not feel well in the morning. Stomach cramps. Its only 4 rounds. Compared to last Wednesday(6+5rounds). Went to work after training, was at Metro Paragon. The night scenery(well if you call it a scenery) at Orchard Road is - well you know what. Off to sleep. Church later. BYE!

Clumsy

2006-11-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

So there was training today. Aishah came! Yay! I hope she stays. :) I fell down YET AGAIN ! How clumsy can I GET?! I felt depressed. Why do I always fall, will I ever get up? Why am I always so clumsy? Its so destressing. Really. SIGH

Netball shoes!

2006-11-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

I went to get a new pair of sports shoes today. Went to some ulu place in Genting Lane. Got the Asics Netburner Magic at $96. They sell it in the market at $159. Oh well, even though it does not look very good, I like the support and comfort of the shoes. Work was alright. Not in a very good condition with my mother now. SIGH

GUYS

2006-11-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

I realised, I like guys who can take care of themselves and know their hygiene. For example, brushing their teeth before bed, bathing and loads of others. I mean, COME ON! You would not want to have a girlfriend who is fat, smelly and with bad breath! I hate smokers too. ARGH!

Japanese tutorial

2006-10-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

Had Japanese tutorial today. Guess what? Adly is in the same tutorial as me! He's my primary school friend that used to sit with me in class. haha So long time ago. Tutorial was cool , no regrets! I called up Guess today, asked whether there is any job vacancy and they said there ARE job vacancies. Next Wednesday interview for it. Hope I can juggle with my school, CCA and job. I need a new step of faith in the Arise and Build 2006.

Sadness

2006-10-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

I am tired, so tired. Lester, I thought you were my friend, but, just now, you made me sad. Really sad. Today is just a day of depression and sorrow. Do not add on to my burden anymore, please.

Goong

2006-10-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

Just watched finish Goong. Its very touching. Well, expected from a Korean drama.
haha
Christine, I still like the prince (Lee Shin). He reminded me of someone.

Fairytale

2006-10-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

I wish I am a character in a fairytale.

Japanese!

2006-10-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

School. Dreaded going to school because I do not get to see my classmates much anymore. Some of my labs and tutorials are different from them. For example, Communication Skills 1 and 3 , I am the only one in another class. It so freaking weird. I really dread it. Next week , training resumes! Really hope that all of the rest will come back. I received my pay on Hari Raya. Went out with Yi Tian. She's very nice lah, accompany me for a shopping trip. I bought loads of stuff. Here's what I did with my money.

1. Backpack from Ink($30)
2. STRANGER wallet from The Wallet Shop($59)
3. Nike footie socks($8.40)
4.Nalgene 1 litre bottle ($18)
5.Collected my Zen Neeon from Creative Care($45)
6.Paid my handphone bills($112)
7. Gave my grandmother $100
8. Gave my mother $50

Damn I am such a spendthrift. But , anyhow, all the items above will last me for quite long. At least, I did not buy the Liverpool FC jacket from Adidas. You do the math.

SCHOOL!

2006-10-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

Its weird when we do not see each other after 12 hours. Haha I still remember last sunday we had basketball for warm up. Miss the times that we had together. Looking forward to the next one! School is starting tomorrow. First thing in the morning : see Mr Simon about my timetable. Even though there's still no problem, but I am going to drop Life Sciences and opting for Japanese/ Psychology. Today's preaching by Pastor Kong was okay, but not as good. Maybe its because I was lethargic. Sister Joy! Saw her and gave her a hug. Looking great as ever. I miss her. I need to pray more. Pray about, school, family and church (Arise and Build!). Penetrate the marketplace! Kristos Kai Kosmos! Well, GOOD NIGHT!

TP CHAMPS

2006-10-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

We are the champions this year! POL-ITE games 2006. :D I love you people! Oh wait, Yvonne must come back to netball okay! Praise God. Thanks for all the prayers from my cell group.

School timetable

2006-10-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

This morning had training. Did not do much. After that I went for my school's semester briefing. Went to see my timetable. It sucks TOTALLY! My Cross Disciplinary subject is not but I literally went, " noooooooooooooooooooo! " My Tuesdays is totally packed like sardines. 9am to 5pm lessons. NO BREAKS AT ALL! I am definitely going to drop this subject and add another one. I tell you, this semester we are all gonna die. I think I am going to stop working for Craftmark. If they want me to work, I can only make it on Saturdays.

Blind

2006-10-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

Today's match was fine. But its weird when I was shouting, " Pressure people! Come on! ". haha The ride back to Tampines was really funny. Yi Ting , Jodine and Grala were all the jokers. After the match, we went to the coffee shop and we had western food. Only Joyce and Qing Xiu ate other food. Tomorrow is the semester briefing. I hope my timetable is not so bad. 2 months of holidays, gone, just like that! SIGH

Stronger

2006-10-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

I know, its weird. Its weird when I am in training. I feel out of the picture. Sigh

Heat Rash

2006-10-17T00:47:00.000+08:00

The heat was officially on. We have been winning 5 out of 6 matches with the respective polytechnics and ITE. We must win this people! I have faith in you guys! Sorry dear readers I have stopped blogging for quite some time. Nevertheless, I am BACK! Well, tough match against SP just now. Our defenders got injured and I am worried. GET WELL PEOPLE! Gotta go sleep already. GOOD NIGHT!

MY KNEE

2006-09-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

MY KNEE HURTS. People, Adam Khoo is a SCAM. BEWARE! If you want to know why, ask me when you meet me. :) I am going to sign up for Tony Buzan's programme. :D Well, off to study. BYE!

RUINED!

2006-09-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

My face is officially ruined. Need to go see a doctor tomorrow morning. Its not nice at all. I have some kind of rashes on it. :( Totally irks me. Next week its official! Training everyday. My knees! Please, be healed by monday. I really want someone to go watch Death Note with me. A guy probably. HAHA Yes, I am desperate! Okay, buh bye people!

o_o

2006-09-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

Did not really sleep during the stay at the chalet. Training today, I hurt my knees. That really sucks. The pus came out of the wound and its totally disguesting ( Jelynn, I know you love it. ) Need to buck up on my fitness. Supplementary paper's on next monday. Sigh. Grandmother's birthday on Saturday! Gonna celebrate after work. Hehe Well , post the chalet photos up next time. Ciao!

Faith

2006-09-19T01:13:00.000+08:00

I have faith in the Lord. I have faith that I can see all my family members get saved. Especially my dear grandmother. I love her , but I love the Lord more. With faith, I will not have doubts. Wished that she will not get angry again. Wondering who is the she? My mother. Hope she will let me go for the chalet and stay overnight. Well, good night folks.

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENNA AND WAN LING! :)

Miss

2006-09-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

I miss those days when I received messages from you.

P.S I HATE FLU ARGH.

Crush

2006-09-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

Today, after work, was walking to the bus queue. This guy was supposedly to be queing in the bus 969 queue. Instead he went to the bus 293 lane. I was walking towards him and he was walking towards me, so we you know, sort of gonna collide onto each other , but he stopped and let me go first, with a smile. After that I could not stop thinkingabout him throughout the train ride home. rofl. Good night people.
P.S, I failed one of my subjects. Consequence : take supplementary paper.

Commitments

2006-09-11T22:54:00.000+08:00

This morning had netball training. The attendance for today's training was suprisingly low. About 10 turned up? Some did not turn up due to IMF/health reasons, which put Coach Vivian in a very bad mood. Well, she had a reasons. She gave me comments to make sure I work hard. She will go,
"Jenn! You're making zero effort!" "Push yourself!" "How can you wait for the ball to come to you?!"

She reprimanded the 10 of us. I feel that I need to work on myself more. :) Working tomorrow, as usual. Should I go to the gym after work? Hmm.
SOMEONE GET ME THIS SHIRT PLEASE :) I do not know if they ship in here.
Its from http://www.thinkgeek.com/tshirts/generic/5eb7/
Well, good night folks.

So sick

2006-09-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

I am so sick of quarrelling with her. Why? What if my grandmother leaves, and the closest person left to me is her , and I still have to be with her till her death. Seriously, I am physically drained by all these stuff. 婆婆，我爱你！

shagged

2006-09-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

Did not went for netball training this morning. Totally shagged and worried about my grandmother. Did all the housework and told her to take care before I left for work. Worked at people's park. I am having problems with hokkien and teochew. The only dialect I know is Cantonese, which I use to converse with my dear grandmother everyday. <3 Well, business was not so bad, compared to Orchard Point. One of sales associates who met me for the first asked,

"Are you Chinese?"
Me, " Yes."

"You looked like an Eurasian! 好漂亮。"

Gah, all these responses are common, some even asked, " Are you a malay? " I will go, " erm.. hell no. " Okay I am not racist but, come on. Enough said. NETBALL ON MONDAY. YES. Weird dream I had yesterday night. It was really sweet. <3

AGAIN

2006-09-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

Today, boring day. Was waiting for my beloved grandmother to come back from China. She went to some kind of ulu island. When she came back, she was not feeling too good. She was aching all over. Her expression was indescribable. I told her to rest and then I went to the gym for another workout. Improvement again! I managed to pushed the limits. Tomorrow netball training in the morning then in the afternoon gonna go to People's Park for work. I have to miss tomorrow's EPL! How saddening. Liverpool vs Everton. Argh. Nothing seems to be right for me. Sigh.

Deep

2006-09-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

Feeling better today. I decided to move forward instead of me blaming the whole world. Been looking through the netball competitions dates, hope it does not clash with anything. Do not even know whether I will get selected to be in the team to represent Temasek.

Day 1 (09/10/06 Mon) : ITE vs TP 1800h Republic Polytechnic Sports Complex
Day 2 (11/10/06 Wed): NYP vs TP 1930h
Day 3 (13/10/06 Fri): RP vs TP 1800h
Day 4 (16/10/06 Mon) : SP vs TP 2100h
Day 5 (18/10/06 Wed) : TP vs NP 1800h

This is great, just great. 9pm game, wow. Sigh. Guess the motivation for me to improve is , beating RP. Gym session again tomorrow! And, OMFG. 16th to 18th I have got CAMP. WHY?!?!?!?!

2006-09-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

I realised, its been God knows when since I stopped trusting people.

I guess

2006-09-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

I guess its just me
I guess its just myself
I guess its just me, myself and I.
Again.

It Hurts

2006-09-03T20:55:00.000+08:00

The ache that surrounds my heart now is unbearable. Can someone just stab me?

BAD

2006-09-02T10:58:00.000+08:00

I did something bad just now. Really bad.I made her mad. You guys do not have any idea what type of person I am. Seriously, I feel like stabbing myself now.

Damnit

2006-08-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

Exams are over. Gonna take supp paper for CARC I guess. I have been looking for a job these few days. Hope I would find one soon. Friday gonna go for an interview for Adidas/Nike/others. Been feeling really down lately. Please, if you have found someone new, tell me, I will know what to do. Its tormenting. You know what I mean?Can you punch me on the stomach and pull my hair?
Spit on me and maybe gouge my eyes out YEAH.

Shades are cool. Perfect defenders. If you know what I mean.

omfg. can somebody donate some money to me to buy this?
http://www.onatoko.com

2006-08-21T21:24:00.000+08:00

Sorry for being crude people. I just love this.